I didn’t use to care where the day took me too much. I didn’t care to have a grand plan on where my life was going. I was enjoying the journey, the experiences, the places, and the small changes in me that lifted.
Now, I think too much. Way too much on the proper placement of a day, an hour, or a minute. I want those self imposed puppet strings cut and to walk this life unfettered, unknotted, from my limited post of reason stuck in the hard hard ground of a seeming need to control a life that doesn’t need controlling, but living.
I get angry, tense, anxiety ridden, depressed, melancholy, or lost at sea when the world in me doesn’t sync up with the rest of the outer.
But that feeling flows away, when I remember all the times when the world did make sense, gave comfort, seemed on my side, or drew me into a content embrace telling me a secret I didn’t know I sought.
You are home child. You are home.
Enjoy the morning rising. Feel the flash of life. Take a breath , now really breath it in and exhale it all out.
That’s all you need says the Universe, that calming breath.
by Philip Wardlow 2018