I fear I will fail myself
and in turn fail you
That you will fade and drift
away from me.
That I will say all the
“right” words
And you will still go
because I wasn’t enough.
That the me I am
cant sustain
the path you
wish to take
I fear your eyes
not seeing me anymore
I fear your hands
not wanting my touch
I fear your silent words
unsaid.
I fear the distance that might
grow between us
never
coming close
ever again
I hold too tightly
in this instance
I fear everything about
it ending.
And then it did.

by Philip Wardlow 2018 (written in 2017)